Sam and Emma: A Love Story in Emails - 6
From: Sam T.
To: Emma Landauer
January 21, 2006
My Dearest Emma,
Have not heard from you in a few days. Are you okay? Please take a moment of your time and send me an email, even a short one, let me know that you are okay.
In your last email, you asked me why life has to be so complicated. The short answer is that it doesn't. Practically speaking, there are always going to be complications in your life. It goes with the territory of being alive. But some people make their lives even more difficult that they already are. Unfortunately, you are one of those people. There are a lot of reasons for that, in your case, but that is a conversation we will have another time. Suffice it to say, the fix for a life that is painfully complicated is to simplify your life. There is no rocket science there. It is that simple.
I do miss you. I miss not being able to pick up the phone to talk to you. In the few hours that we were able to steal from our daily routine, the time we spent together was extraordinarily special.
When we first met, my life was really complicated. Hell, my life was a bloody mess and I was unhappy and I was dealing with a lot of problems for which I had no good answers at the time. I found my life to be unbearably painful and there was nowhere that I felt good about myself. And then I met you and when I was with you, I wasn't in pain. We created a separate world for ourselves where for a short time it did not hurt to be there. I owe you a lot for that. Now my life is better, post-therapy. But now you have become a part of my life and I still need you very much to be in my life, even if only in the emails we send to each other.
Please do not disappear on me again, even for a brief period of time. You do that when you have momentarily found someone else to be with or when life becomes overwhelming for you. You know that it drives me a little nuts when you do that. I guess I know that it is sort of normal for you to just disappear from time to time. A sort of ingrained habit of yours. However, you know where I am, so write me when you decide to surface, if you are in fact "somewhere else" for awhile.
When you find the time, write me and let me know what is going on with you. I always care what happens to you, my love.
Sending you a lot of love via email,
Sam
To be continued....
To: Emma Landauer
January 21, 2006
My Dearest Emma,
Have not heard from you in a few days. Are you okay? Please take a moment of your time and send me an email, even a short one, let me know that you are okay.
In your last email, you asked me why life has to be so complicated. The short answer is that it doesn't. Practically speaking, there are always going to be complications in your life. It goes with the territory of being alive. But some people make their lives even more difficult that they already are. Unfortunately, you are one of those people. There are a lot of reasons for that, in your case, but that is a conversation we will have another time. Suffice it to say, the fix for a life that is painfully complicated is to simplify your life. There is no rocket science there. It is that simple.
I do miss you. I miss not being able to pick up the phone to talk to you. In the few hours that we were able to steal from our daily routine, the time we spent together was extraordinarily special.
When we first met, my life was really complicated. Hell, my life was a bloody mess and I was unhappy and I was dealing with a lot of problems for which I had no good answers at the time. I found my life to be unbearably painful and there was nowhere that I felt good about myself. And then I met you and when I was with you, I wasn't in pain. We created a separate world for ourselves where for a short time it did not hurt to be there. I owe you a lot for that. Now my life is better, post-therapy. But now you have become a part of my life and I still need you very much to be in my life, even if only in the emails we send to each other.
Please do not disappear on me again, even for a brief period of time. You do that when you have momentarily found someone else to be with or when life becomes overwhelming for you. You know that it drives me a little nuts when you do that. I guess I know that it is sort of normal for you to just disappear from time to time. A sort of ingrained habit of yours. However, you know where I am, so write me when you decide to surface, if you are in fact "somewhere else" for awhile.
When you find the time, write me and let me know what is going on with you. I always care what happens to you, my love.
Sending you a lot of love via email,
Sam
To be continued....
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