Things Seem A Little Too Quiet!

My days are quieter and less frantic now. I find this new state of mind a little strange and maybe I am a little suspicious even now that all of this is too good to be true. Where is the punch line? When will someone say to me, "Hey Buddy, the jokes on you." But, since I haven't heard any other shoes dropping in a long time, maybe all this is real.

I find it even stranger that I am having trouble remembering what it felt like to live in a life that was chaotic and that always seemed to be just one step away from falling completely apart. The bad memories, the painful memories, the depression... I can't remember what that felt like anymore. Was all that real? Did I dream it? I know I didn't, but I ask myself these questions anyway.

Life is better now. I need to simply just accept the good times with appreciation and with grace. I know that this is just a lull before some distant storm in my life, so I had better enjoy this state of affairs while I can. Strange or not, I like it. I like it a lot.

Postscript:

And Now For Something Entirely Different...

Tonight I saw a show on Frank Loesser, the Broadway composer and lyricist. He was known to have mentored many of the up and coming talents among the Broadway composers. He let them know that he recognized very special talent in them. And after they had worked with him for awhile, they were able to see that in themselves as well. A little sadly, I wish that I would have had such a mentor. I did not. But if I had, I suspect that I wouldn't be harboring just a little disappointment about how my life has turned out. My life is not bad or awful by any means. But I would have liked to have been more than I turned out to be.