I Am Back!

It is two in the morning, March 27, 2008.

Hard to believe that I have not posted anything since December 2007. It would be too easy to say that I was just busy. In truth, I was busy. But that would only tell part of the story. I got caught up in the rat race and in the scramble to make a buck. And also, for the first time, I am figuring out how to be a success at something. My priorities have changed and I see the world so much differently now. I know that this sounds like throwing all kinds of reasons into the answer to the question. But all of these things have been happening all at once and for the longest time it felt like I had no time to think.

Since last September, I have done work for at least three different places every week. Now it is more than that. The routine has been to run from one job to the next, stop by to make sure my mother (98 yrs old) is okay, get home hopefully by 7:30 pm, grab a bite, go to bed and the next day more of the same. At first I loved the pace and more money coming in. And then the routine ground me down and for a time I was really burned out. 

Now, I have made adjustments. I pace myself. I do try to get some sleep. I am setting time to get our apartment cleaned up, finally after a year of living in boxes. I am doing my best to find a center... a balance. 

The upshot to all that I have gone through is that I got out of the habit of blogging... of making the time to do so. Now, it is time to get back into the groove of every night, posting  a blog post... of considering the day just past. Of trying to make some sense of my day or of making a comment on the happenings of my usually ordinary life. Or of noting something that took place somewhere in the world, that struck me as ironic or funny or tragic or just plain stupid. I need to set aside that quiet time each day to just reflect on my life and on world, so that I can always remind myself what is important and what is not. 

I guess if I have been a bit off balance for the last several months, it was my own fault. Mr. Bush must have gotten to me, because even when I knew that what I was doing was not making me happy, I just decided "...to stay the course." It has not been a particularly bright thing for Mr. Bush to use that strategy. And definitely not a bright thing for me to do. 

I had forgotten that thing I learned not so very long ago. When life gets so crazy and the only thing that seems to make any sense is just to keep up the pace, that is the time to stop right where you are and survey the terrain around you. Look all 360 degrees around you. Get your bearings and then make sure you are headed in the right direction and doing something that actually makes sense to do. And then reset your priorities if necessary and move on once more. No particular rocket science in that strategy. 

Anyway, I realize I am just rambling. I just wanted to return to my blog and begin to write again. And to write something that is not simply predicated on selling something  to someone or to write a business letter. 

Enough! I am back. Look for more to come in the coming days.