Sam and Emma: A Love Story in Emails - 7

From: Emma Landauer
To: Sam T.

January 22, 2006

My Precious Sam,

Please don't be upset with me. Things are getting very bad here for me. I have talked to Kurt, but he does not want to see me. He is so cold to me when we talk. This is not the person I remember when he and I were together in the US. He has changed so much. I don't know what to do now. I don't know whether to keep trying or to just give up on a relationship with him.

And I am beginning to hate myself again. Why did I come back to Germany? I want Kurt to love me. I don't know if he ever will. I can make such stupid decisions sometimes. I really liked living in America. And here I am chasing something and I don't even know if this a real or not.
I can't think very straight right now, Sam. My dear, sweet Sam, how I wish you were here.

What am I going to do now? It is getting harder to get out of bed in the morning. But I am trying to keep going. I will try to call Kurt in a few days and see how the call goes.

I miss you so much. And I do love you very much. You are good to me. And I know you get a little crazy if I don't write for awhile. But you should know that I love you very much and that is not going to change.

Love and Kisses,

Emma

To be continued.....