Sam and Emma: A Love Story in Emails - 10
From: Sam T.
To: Emma Landauer
February 1, 2006
My Dearest Emma,
I apologize that it has taken me so long to respond to your last email. It is just that I wanted to carefully think about what I wanted to say to you in response. I wanted to make sure that whatever it was that I wrote would make a difference in helping you to deal with all the pain you are feeling now. I have seen you this way before, when you were here. Do you remember when you were trying to finish up your dissertation and so many other things were going on in your life that you couldn't stay focused or be able to find any happiness in the moment. You had been trying to complete it for over two years. But I was there for you and helped you to move forward and eventually to go to San Francisco and finally do what it took to earn your Masters Degree.
I decided that it really doesn't matter that we are so far apart from each other. I decided that our love for each other transcends time and distance. Our love for each other and the support we give each other in bad times can diminish only if we let it. And I promised you that I would never abandon you. I would never give up on you. So if the only thing I have to give you is the emails I send you, then so be it. That is what I will give you so long as you need me to do so.
When you read my emails, close your eyes and you will feel my arm around your shoulder. When people and events begin to overwhelm you, feel my arms around you pulling you close to me and holding you securely there, so that nothing and nobody could harm you. I love you beyond any measure that can be contrived. I will not stand by and let you be hurt or let you hurt yourself, which you are very at doing. I will not abandon you. You will never be alone in this world so long as I have a breath in my body.
Our love has survived the "honeymoon," as they say. Long after you and I figured out what sort of person each of us was, we are still love each other in spite of that. And that, my love, if you don't already know it, is really extraordinary in these times. I love you so very much, just as you are. In real love, my precious Emma, that is the way it should be... the way it has to be if that kind of love is going to survive over time.
So, I will offer you no practical advice in this email. That isn't what you need to be hearing at this point of the game. You are in a place where you feel alone and almost overwhelmed by events and circumstances. But so long as I live, you are not alone. So long as I live and breathe, you will never be alone. If you need me, you know where I am. I am an email away or a phone call away. I have told you I will always feel your handprint on my heart. And my handprint will forever be on your heart as well. Our lives will forever be intertwined. There will always be a connection between us and no power on earth can change that.
So if you need me to give you the encouragement, the love or some inner strength that it will take to survive yet another day, reach out to me. I will be there for you unconditionally. Emma, I love you very much and always will.
Your Sam
To: Emma Landauer
February 1, 2006
My Dearest Emma,
I apologize that it has taken me so long to respond to your last email. It is just that I wanted to carefully think about what I wanted to say to you in response. I wanted to make sure that whatever it was that I wrote would make a difference in helping you to deal with all the pain you are feeling now. I have seen you this way before, when you were here. Do you remember when you were trying to finish up your dissertation and so many other things were going on in your life that you couldn't stay focused or be able to find any happiness in the moment. You had been trying to complete it for over two years. But I was there for you and helped you to move forward and eventually to go to San Francisco and finally do what it took to earn your Masters Degree.
I decided that it really doesn't matter that we are so far apart from each other. I decided that our love for each other transcends time and distance. Our love for each other and the support we give each other in bad times can diminish only if we let it. And I promised you that I would never abandon you. I would never give up on you. So if the only thing I have to give you is the emails I send you, then so be it. That is what I will give you so long as you need me to do so.
When you read my emails, close your eyes and you will feel my arm around your shoulder. When people and events begin to overwhelm you, feel my arms around you pulling you close to me and holding you securely there, so that nothing and nobody could harm you. I love you beyond any measure that can be contrived. I will not stand by and let you be hurt or let you hurt yourself, which you are very at doing. I will not abandon you. You will never be alone in this world so long as I have a breath in my body.
Our love has survived the "honeymoon," as they say. Long after you and I figured out what sort of person each of us was, we are still love each other in spite of that. And that, my love, if you don't already know it, is really extraordinary in these times. I love you so very much, just as you are. In real love, my precious Emma, that is the way it should be... the way it has to be if that kind of love is going to survive over time.
So, I will offer you no practical advice in this email. That isn't what you need to be hearing at this point of the game. You are in a place where you feel alone and almost overwhelmed by events and circumstances. But so long as I live, you are not alone. So long as I live and breathe, you will never be alone. If you need me, you know where I am. I am an email away or a phone call away. I have told you I will always feel your handprint on my heart. And my handprint will forever be on your heart as well. Our lives will forever be intertwined. There will always be a connection between us and no power on earth can change that.
So if you need me to give you the encouragement, the love or some inner strength that it will take to survive yet another day, reach out to me. I will be there for you unconditionally. Emma, I love you very much and always will.
Your Sam
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