Another Day in the Journey

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times....."

It seems so strange that I am achieving a moment of clarity at this moment in time. As you will see, I am being forced to live in the moment by circumstances which are utterly beyond my control. Oh well, I am the one who is always preaching to others to live in the moment, so I am being compelled to live according to the standards I established with my own words.

So what is my situation at the moment? Many aspects of my my life are unsettled and lacking structure. This is one of those in-between times... a moment of transition to whatever is supposed to come next. I am struggling to remain focused. More importantly, I am desperately trying to remain motivated. The old objectives that defined what I was trying to accomplish are no longer viable or clear. So add to the list, I need to redefine my goals, objectives... and aspirations. The latter is the one that gives a sense of hope and purpose to whatever I am doing.

As always, I am at my best at a keyboard and staring at a CRT. In this context, I can focus and think clearly. I can accomplish something meaningful working one-on-one in this context. I am a writer, for better or for worse.

So again, where am I in this moment? My business plan was a bust and needs to be rebuilt. I need to get out there and hustle and make money, just to get caught up with my bills much less break even. My car needs about $2,000 worth of work to be drivable. There is no money available to fix it.

Strangely, none of this depresses me or overwhelms me. Almost by habit now, I go into this mode of just saying to myself, "All this is what it is. What do I need to do, in order to get moving again?" This sort of situation isn't going to be a life-ending thing or a business-ending situation. It is what it is. It is a moment at which I have to be proactive and make some hard decisions. I have to get Marilyn on board and then then just move on. That is all there is to this mess. Just life happening.

On a positive note, none of these happenings are going to sink the ship. My life will go. Thankfully, I am now a person who is strong enough to weather this storm and then the next one that comes along. It is just a journey and this is just one day in that journey. My strategy is just to live in the moment and in this case to survive the moment as best I can, without drama and without any sense of tragedy. After all, life is what it is. Just that and little more, even in the best of times.